linguistics.

Mon, 10 Mar 2008 02:42:49 GMT

You never really know how good you've got it until you're really out of it. Work at I-S was a little crappy at times but Soap and Crazy were good. Now that I'm here, I long for those lazy days once more. But is that really a good thing? Of course not. It's never good to be lazy or wanting to be lazy. Again, I will return to the topic of having to start work early and never really enjoying the life of a teenager- partying, staying out late, bumming, etc. Now I am so envious of my friends who have nothing to do that they roam the streets aimlessly. Some of them envy that I'm working and that I get paid. I do think that it's good to get a pay. Who doesn't like money? And I'm still learning here. Good thing. Sometimes I just wish, enough with the learning. Everyday I'm learning. ENOUGH ALREADY. I want to be my own boss. I want to be more than I am right now. I'm still young so I still have SOME time.. Not a lot. Just some.

Tue, 02 Oct 2007 08:31:57 GMT

Haaaah. I AM QUALIFIED. Qualified!!! Heeheeeeheeeehee. I've waited too long for this.

On another note. A conversation last night got me thinking and I feel kinda bad thinking/ feeling this way but damn, it really will affect relationships.

Thu, 27 Sep 2007 02:43:13 GMT

This is zero fun. Working and studying and hoping to pass everything with glittery flying colours. It's not too much. It just gets a little overwhelming at times. I almost broke down yesterday. Dear God. It's not that difficult is it? Oh no. Not at all. But there's so many more things I wish I was doing right now. So many places I want to be. So many things to experience. And because I am a dreamer- these are no tiny thoughts. These are the big ones. So I was thinking, shouldn't I have to work really hard right now so that I can enjoy life a little earlier on. Not retire early; just take a step back earlier. I don't exactly think it's a good place to retire alone here. Maybe one of those Florida homes. That would be great. Or Hawaii. Beautiful.

Oh well, keep dreaming.

Mon, 24 Sep 2007 08:25:28 GMT

Goodness gracious me. Here I am stoning while thinking of ways to not sink into the quicksand and it is not looking too good right about now. Learning is one thing. But just getting thrown into the deep end of the pool is no fun. I can't swim. I'm just going to sink.

Tue, 11 Sep 2007 07:56:27 GMT

We're the kids in America! Woohoo! I hear that song whenever I think of Clueless. Go figure.

Wed, 05 Sep 2007 04:54:12 GMT

I quite pity those people who are worriers. It's like, they're so preoccupied with the repercussions of what might (not) happen that they never allow themselves to just go with the flow. &when they do let themselves go, they really are so much happier. Oh such is the world of fools.

Ooh, I adore this weather. It's sunny yet windy. Absolute love. It's freezing in the office though.
I wish I was rich. Or at least doing something more fulfilling with my life. Or better yet, brave enough to persue what it is I want. But there's a fork in the road because I have no idea what I want to do. I don't think so anyway. Of course I have ideals- I'm just afraid that's just what they are. Nothing more than ideals. But you'll never know if you don't try right? Oh I hate this vicious circle.

Fri, 31 Aug 2007 06:16:06 GMT

Brrrrrr. It is absolutely freezing over here. &when I say here, I mean in the office. Not some far out Scandanavian country. Although I think it would be fun. A holiday would be fun. Take me away. Far far away. I would love to be on a farm now plucking strawberries and eating gelati. This morning's wind really carried something along.

My cousin's coming back for awhile and my mother is completely exploiting it. I want to go up there.

Thu, 16 Aug 2007 03:44:03 GMT

Being in church was a refreshing change yesterday. And totally welcome. Too many things have been floating around in my mind that it really is turning into such a mess up there.
Work's been so blase. Life has been so blase. All the excitement from the weekend has worn off and while it was too much at that point, it's surprisingly gone. Just, gone. I can't wait to speak like a normal person again. The world will be semi-glorious once again.
So yes, it's basically about taking the first step. It's really scary but I will never amount to anything more than I am now if I don't do something about it. Waiting for the push might take a year or so to happen and I might loathe my life even more. So I say, get out for it happens. Get out quick. Get out now!
Adios.

Wed, 15 Aug 2007 09:09:03 GMT

My, I sure am famished. I'm not surprised anyway.
Good golly gosh. I really wish I knew what I want to do with my life. Well, okay. I think I know? But at the same time, I don't know if it's just big dreams.

I have such a craving for Popeye's! I want food. Good food. Real food. Solid food. NOW. My tummy's being really noisy. &I would like to go to the airport. It's time for major dreaming. Especially at a time like this.

Tue, 14 Aug 2007 03:22:46 GMT

Things are not looking too bright for the parents. Let's all play the blame game. I really don't know what's happening. And neither does the clueless brother. So.. We're both really lost right now while pretending that nothing's wrong. And it is pretty easy when you relly don't know what's happening.

Anywho, life is getting very dull. I thought I had more to say. I do. But I just can't put them into words.

I don't like people who at like every little thing is so damn important. And make themselves seem so indisposable that the world would collapse without them. Everyone just needs to chill.....

Wed, 01 Aug 2007 03:39:19 GMT

There's been a sudden influx in the number to noise/ air polluting bikes around me area. &it's driving me nuts.
I'm almost done with Harry Potter! How exciting.
I'm hungry.
I want to go shopping.
I want to get away from here.
Heeelppppp!

Tue, 24 Jul 2007 02:30:03 GMT

I think I might go crazy. Because that's the kind of person I am. I will explode if she bloody bangs one more fucking thing!

Tue, 24 Jul 2007 02:00:43 GMT

Oh so true. Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional.
I'm quite disgusted and distraught at the same time by how many people are just turning oh so bitter and taking it out on everyone else. Simply put, it's just not fair. No one else deserves to have their day spoiled just because yours is. You're just acting like a lousy human being. Get over it. I want to be nice to you but you're just ostacizing everyone else. Why the heck should I bother with you if all you're doing in scowling all day? Plus, I might just get my head bitten off.
No thanks.

Mon, 23 Jul 2007 07:10:48 GMT

The cute one.

Wed, 18 Jul 2007 03:47:06 GMT

I feel like I might kill myself soon. It's not really that funny. I feel like I want to go to Shanghai or Hong Kong and totally embrace the culture shock.

Tue, 17 Jul 2007 03:44:19 GMT

I'm pretty appreciative and grateful that people watch out for me because I'm the young one. But at the same time, I wish they'd just let up a little. Okay, they don't know what I'm capable of. But it would be nice to be given a little credit.

Fri, 13 Jul 2007 07:50:32 GMT

I am so cross with internet explorer and messenger. Urhh.

Partying never agrees with me the next morning; but it's always awesome at night.

Thu, 12 Jul 2007 03:10:30 GMT

Because I love the windy days.
Because of the beaches.
Beacuse of the shopping.
Because of gum balls.
Because I like the market.
Because I want to buy ham cheap.
Because I like target.
Because I like the Salvation Army store.

Wed, 11 Jul 2007 03:27:59 GMT

I'm going so crazy it's not even funny. I'm hating everything so much it's sick. But I love my family too much to abandon them.
Everything's taking a toll on me; it's really crazy. I'm really starting to think I'm sinking into depression. Goodness, this is so emo.
So excuse me while I go wear some eyeliner and comb my fringe over one eye.

Mon, 09 Jul 2007 06:33:40 GMT

Strike! I am on Strike! Mentally anyway. I feel so completely zoned out. I don't know why. I doubt it's the lack of sleep because I've been sleeping a reasonable number of hours. Maybe it's just the complete lack of interest of any sort. Like this morning, the weather was just too lovely. Despite being late and knowing I had to hurry, my mind just didn't care.

I still want to be on permanent holiday. Shucks.

Fri, 06 Jul 2007 06:13:48 GMT

Oh so many gripes I have about stupid cab drivers and service staff in restaurants. No, I'm not stereotyping (service staff). Cab drivers, not doubt there are decent ones who give two hoots about road courtesy. Unfortunately, I've had the misfortune of coming across so many who drive like they're maniacs who own the whole freaking road. What's wrong with you? Can't you signal? Is that so bloody difficult? Screw you. &it's not just cab drivers. Stupid people are everywhere.
&annoying people are everywhere. Stop staring. It's just plain annoying.

Normally I'd be estatic that it's Friday(!) but not today. The feeling's just not there. &I'm so envious of my mum who's on leave the entire week &the brother who's still on holiday after (what feels like) ten thousand years &my dad who was on leave for 2days- just because. They had breakfast at the coffeeshop yesterday. Without me! Sooo envious. I want to spend mornings like that too; like those happy old people and their grand children.
Regardless, I'm still looking forward to the weekend. 2days of doing nothing. I like. I love. I crave. More! I want more!
I want more days! More time! More money! More love! More happiness!

Sugarrrrrrrr! Mmmmmmmm yummy.

Mon, 02 Jul 2007 07:13:54 GMT

Oh noo. Stupid things always happen to me.
Now I have to type out everything again.

* Buying pretty dresses make me happy.
* Being on holiday makes me happy.
* Feeling rich makes me happy.
* Being at home makes me happy.

Wed, 27 Jun 2007 03:30:32 GMT

Oh goody. The weather's damn screwed up. Global warming is real. That's what they say on tv when promoting LiveEarth. Like I'd believe that they really give two hoots? Nah-uh. I don't think soooo.

Ok. I just hope I pass.

Mon, 25 Jun 2007 04:01:59 GMT

Oh wellios. It's another drab Monday, &I've got driving the whole week. &I'm pretty panicky and worried about failing. Again. Urghh. &I seriously need to remember to renew my PDL first. &apply for leave. Shit.

The weather's been disturbingly screwed up. We need Captain Planet.

Tue, 19 Jun 2007 03:59:29 GMT

Tuesday &already I'm sleepy. I say we stick to my idea of never having to work. But then there'll be chaos in the world. Rice krispies treats! I want!