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[Mar. 10th, 2008|10:37 am] |
You never really know how good you've got it until you're really out of it. Work at I-S was a little crappy at times but Soap and Crazy were good. Now that I'm here, I long for those lazy days once more. But is that really a good thing? Of course not. It's never good to be lazy or wanting to be lazy. Again, I will return to the topic of having to start work early and never really enjoying the life of a teenager- partying, staying out late, bumming, etc. Now I am so envious of my friends who have nothing to do that they roam the streets aimlessly. Some of them envy that I'm working and that I get paid. I do think that it's good to get a pay. Who doesn't like money? And I'm still learning here. Good thing. Sometimes I just wish, enough with the learning. Everyday I'm learning. ENOUGH ALREADY. I want to be my own boss. I want to be more than I am right now. I'm still young so I still have SOME time.. Not a lot. Just some.
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[Oct. 2nd, 2007|04:01 pm] |
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Haaaah. I AM QUALIFIED. Qualified!!! Heeheeeeheeeehee. I've waited too long for this. On another note. A conversation last night got me thinking and I feel kinda bad thinking/ feeling this way but damn, it really will affect relationships. |
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[Sep. 27th, 2007|10:29 am] |
This is zero fun. Working and studying and hoping to pass everything with glittery flying colours. It's not too much. It just gets a little overwhelming at times. I almost broke down yesterday. Dear God. It's not that difficult is it? Oh no. Not at all. But there's so many more things I wish I was doing right now. So many places I want to be. So many things to experience. And because I am a dreamer- these are no tiny thoughts. These are the big ones. So I was thinking, shouldn't I have to work really hard right now so that I can enjoy life a little earlier on. Not retire early; just take a step back earlier. I don't exactly think it's a good place to retire alone here. Maybe one of those Florida homes. That would be great. Or Hawaii. Beautiful.
Oh well, keep dreaming. |
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[Sep. 24th, 2007|04:09 pm] |
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Goodness gracious me. Here I am stoning while thinking of ways to not sink into the quicksand and it is not looking too good right about now. Learning is one thing. But just getting thrown into the deep end of the pool is no fun. I can't swim. I'm just going to sink. |
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[Sep. 11th, 2007|03:40 pm] |
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We're the kids in America! Woohoo! I hear that song whenever I think of Clueless. Go figure. |
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[Sep. 5th, 2007|12:37 pm] |
I quite pity those people who are worriers. It's like, they're so preoccupied with the repercussions of what might (not) happen that they never allow themselves to just go with the flow. &when they do let themselves go, they really are so much happier. Oh such is the world of fools.
Ooh, I adore this weather. It's sunny yet windy. Absolute love. It's freezing in the office though.
I wish I was rich. Or at least doing something more fulfilling with my life. Or better yet, brave enough to persue what it is I want. But there's a fork in the road because I have no idea what I want to do. I don't think so anyway. Of course I have ideals- I'm just afraid that's just what they are. Nothing more than ideals. But you'll never know if you don't try right? Oh I hate this vicious circle. |
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[Aug. 31st, 2007|02:19 pm] |
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Brrrrrr. It is absolutely freezing over here. &when I say here, I mean in the office. Not some far out Scandanavian country. Although I think it would be fun. A holiday would be fun. Take me away. Far far away. I would love to be on a farm now plucking strawberries and eating gelati. This morning's wind really carried something along. My cousin's coming back for awhile and my mother is completely exploiting it. I want to go up there. |
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[Aug. 16th, 2007|11:19 am] |
Being in church was a refreshing change yesterday. And totally welcome. Too many things have been floating around in my mind that it really is turning into such a mess up there.
Work's been so blase. Life has been so blase. All the excitement from the weekend has worn off and while it was too much at that point, it's surprisingly gone. Just, gone. I can't wait to speak like a normal person again. The world will be semi-glorious once again.
So yes, it's basically about taking the first step. It's really scary but I will never amount to anything more than I am now if I don't do something about it. Waiting for the push might take a year or so to happen and I might loathe my life even more. So I say, get out for it happens. Get out quick. Get out now!
Adios. |
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[Aug. 15th, 2007|04:59 pm] |
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My, I sure am famished. I'm not surprised anyway.
Good golly gosh. I really wish I knew what I want to do with my life. Well, okay. I think I know? But at the same time, I don't know if it's just big dreams.
I have such a craving for Popeye's! I want food. Good food. Real food. Solid food. NOW. My tummy's being really noisy. &I would like to go to the airport. It's time for major dreaming. Especially at a time like this.
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[Aug. 14th, 2007|11:23 am] |
Things are not looking too bright for the parents. Let's all play the blame game. I really don't know what's happening. And neither does the clueless brother. So.. We're both really lost right now while pretending that nothing's wrong. And it is pretty easy when you relly don't know what's happening.
Anywho, life is getting very dull. I thought I had more to say. I do. But I just can't put them into words.
I don't like people who at like every little thing is so damn important. And make themselves seem so indisposable that the world would collapse without them. Everyone just needs to chill..... |
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